The tiny specs girl

Im seated here, the music on full blast on my headphones. I'm hardly listning to the lyrics. I just need the sound-a getaway.I need the music to drown the loudness of this voice that keeps playing on my head. Listning to it gets me no where and i find myself thinking and thinking just to end up where i started..messed up in genral. But again who isnt messed up these days? our cricket team's one classic example.


Anyways my 19th century VDU seems to be finally showing signs of ageing and that explains the delay in the posts. I need to chuck the thing out and get a new one, but ofcourse as always im brokeee!!!!!!!!!!! ive this 'magic' wallet, quite contrary to being full of bucks, evrytime i put my money into it, it seems to suck it up faster than the black hole. Recesssionnnnn sure is here!


Was in for quite a shocker earlier this week..my besty texts me up around 10 at nite to tell me she was going to get engaged. i checked the date to see if it was the first of april..realizing that we just stepped into 2009 i called her up. It was for real. She wasnt pulling my leg. I was sooo errr confused..I know you think im being paranoid and stupid but i dont know..azee just cant get engaged like that.i mean she'd have to marry eventually if so rite?? thats the problem, i cant imagine azee married!

Its not like ive the most boring life on earth you know.I just try to get hold of the whole rollercoastric style of it and whoaaa im in for yet another shocker..at first i was just completly shocked..i mean azee just cant get engaged because she has to get married then! and i just couldnt imagine her married..my deceitful dramtic mind was already conjuring mental images of azee walking down an aisle with macho-kinda guy and then an image of a tiny azee calling me aunty. darn! it was quite an ordeal that day and i remember shaking it all off my head as soon as the images had formed.

I know u dont understand why im freaking out soo much..here's the titbit. Its an arranged marriage.So it just worked out quite suddnly. i knew it was bound to happen sooner or later but i guess never expected it to be this soon! and i guess im scared..you knw worried..i was never in for an arranged marrige..i mean i really wanted to get to know the person i was going to eventually tie a knot with..i wanted the same for azee..felt she should get to know this guy she was going to spend her entire life time with. But she's real conservative, so she's all cool with the arranged marriage thingy and from what ive heard soo far, this guy- Miffy, sounds great. so alls good..ive kept my fingers crossed anyway..


Feels weird to think she'd be getting married and all dat..i just want this to be perfect for her..because she's this girl with an amazing heart..she just simply cares n cares n cares about evryone..pretty much like mother theresa, you know the too good to be true kind. hehe. thats what i like the best about her. i mean to think of it, its this thing we used to share in common..After a number of umm mishaps ive learnt that u simply cannot be that way with evryone..its a cruel world out there..if u just happen to care too much about people, they just tend to take you for granted, use you and den they are done..and u just hang in their regretting and taking all the shitty consequences that follow..ive been through it and it hurt like hell..i just dont want azee to go throught all that.


Its sweet to think of how we became best buds.I remember being not very happy about my 6th year in school because we were burdened with the unwelcome news of the two parallel grade five clases (5M and 5H) were to be combined for the following school year. Azee was in 5M and me in 5H and i simply hated her class. I wouldnt get along very well with anyone in dat class bec i thought they were all pretty stuck up.Initially i was very subtle with azee because she was always kind and nice to evryone..But the fact that she belononged to the M class was enough for me to cut her off my i like you list.

Anyways the claseses were merged but we separated ourselves within the class; we sat on two sides of the class room. Our girls wouldn talk much with them and likewise..This continued for like a month or so but soon we were warming up to their presence..And one day- i rem that day soo wel..It was a free period or sumthing and i was writing sumthing on my book. The girl who sits next to me had left school so the chair remained empty.

"Can i sit here"

i luked up and saw azee, peering at me throught her specs..i smiled.

"Sure"

and she sat..i remember, distinctly, seeing friends whispering to each other.It was quite a brave thing to do, because her friends obviously didnt approve with what she had just done. and we sat there in silence for a few minutes. i continued with my work.

"do u have a best frind?" she asked

i looked at her, smiled and said "no"


Silence again. I went back to what i was doing.


"um ok, can we be best frinds???"

i looked up at her. She looked very excited and i smiled back at her, equally excited. The idea seemed good and i liked her.

"Allright then. Lets be best friends"

And we were and stil are!

hehe..we've laughed about it countlesst times..it all seems stupid and sweet now..but im grateful it happened..my life wouldnt have been the same without the tiny specs girl in it..she's been the best friend ever,even if ive been stupid and moronic enought to hurt her. Along the years we even lost touch because of my stupidity..but she never gave up on me..She made it a point to keep in touch and eventually she helped break the ice and forgave me for hurting her..and nothing has chnged since..


And Azee, if your reading, your about to make the biggest transition of your life and i just want you to know that il always be here for you..to celebrate the triumphant moments and to assure you we screwed up in not soo triumphant ones. Just continue to be the angel you are. Its hard not to love you and girl, ur gona win Miffy's heart in a jiffy. And hey, You rock, your my besty ne. hehe